Hello Again

Well, I just recently got this blogging app on my I touch, so I might be posting more often! Posts that will be coming soon are as follows:

Avengers Review
Dreamwalker synopsis
Excerpts from Dreamwalker
Something Doctor Whoish

Also something that might be of interest, I finished my novel, Rael's Redemption! The title will probably change, and it majorly needs editing, but it's done! :D

Anyways, that's all I have to say for now!

~ Calleigh

Dreamwalker

Gosh, I never knew how much research went into writing a modern day book! @_@ I'm working on the first chapter of my new idea Dreamwalker, and it takes place in Edinburgh, Scotland, and my goodness! It's insane how much mapping out I'm having to do. Making sure she can actually walk from here to there, and the like. But anyway, here's the synopsis for my novel, and hopefully chapter 1 will be finished soon! :D

Emoree O’Connell is a Dreamwalker. Born to a Seelie mother, and a human father, she’s branded a half breed. A dangerous one. Sworn to kill the Unseelie, and protect the dreams of the innocent, she gives as much as she receives from the dark fey haunting the streets of Edinburgh.

                Em’s dreamwalking power has long lain dormant, until one night when screams fill the air, and Emoree is the only one who can hear them. Hopping from one dream to the next, she is met with horrors. Horrors only she can stop. The game is on, and another Dreamwalker is loose in the world.

~ Calleigh

Wow.

Welcome to the first post in 2012!! I suppose I should have made New Years resolution to post on my blog more often, but I didn't so deal with it. :P My non-existant readers shall continue to be bored to death.

....maybe that's why I have no readers. o.o

Anyway, as you can probably tell, I'm feeling more weird than normal, but hey, that's life. I have decided that I need to post more of my novel, but to do that, I actually need to edit what I have. I like editing, but I kinda want to just finish writing it so I can start a new idea I have! It involoves guns. Pink guns. And a cute blonde guy. And my newest epic female MC, who shall remain nameless. Mostly because I haven't decided on a name yet. :P But she will be epic! She's a bit like Rae, only with a modern twist, and even more sarcastic. *GRIN* It'll be fun.

And I think that's all for now! *invisible readers cheer*

~ Calleigh

Click it!!!!....... Please? :P

This is the link to my newest blog: http://calleighs365daychallenge.blogspot.com/ Click the link if you want to know what the challenge is! :D If you decide to join me in this endeavour, comment with a link to your blog! :D

~ Calleigh

Greetings

So, once again, I have completely failed at updating my blog regularly. Bad me. I don't even really have anything to write about this time. :P I have quite a few new free writing things, but you don't want to hear those. And now I'm sitting here eating skittles, making myself type something you don't want to read anyway. :P

Oh, in case you were wondering, I gave up on Nano about two weeks in. >.> I still got quite a bit added to my novel though, which makes me happy. Now I just have to go back and edit most of it out. =_= I should really shut up and let you all get back to your lives, but I'm not going to.

So..............

Does anyone want to do some free writing exercises with me??? I would love you FOREVEH if you did! :P I promise you'll have fun!!!! Ooh, and that brings up something! I have a list of words that I'm going to try to get done withing the next 6 months. Maybe I'll let you guys pick the next one. :D I've already done the one's that are crossed out. :D Leave your vote in a comment!

1. Rivers
2. Innocence
3. Rivalry
4. Unbreakable
5. Obsession
6. Eternity
7. Gateway
8. Death
9. Opportunities
10. Dead Wrong
11. Running Away
12. Judgment
13. Seeking Solace
14. Excuses
15. Vengeance
16. Love
17. Tears
18. Reality
19. Never Again
20. Answers
21. Failure
22. Breaking Away
23. Forever and a day
24. Lost and Found
25. Light
26. Dark
27. Faith
28. Colors
29. Exploration
30. Seeing Red
31. Shades of Grey
32. Forgotten
33. Dreamer
34. Mist
35. Burning
36. Out of Time
37. Fork in the road
38. Start
39. Nature’s Fury
40. At Peace
41. Heart Song
42. Reflection
43. Perfection
44. Everyday Magic
45. Nowhere and nothing
46. Party
47. Troubling Thoughts
48. Stirring of the Wind
49. Future
50. Healing
51. Separation
52. Everything For You
53. Slow Down
54. Heartfelt Apology
55. Challenged
56. Exhaustion
57. Accuracy
58. Cold Embrace
59. Frost
60. A Moment in Time
61. Dangerous Territory
62. Boundaries
63. Shattered
64. Bitter Silence
65. The True You
66. Pretense
67. Patience
68. Midnight
69. Shadows
70. Echoes
71. Falling
72. Picking up the Pieces
73. Possession
74. Twilight
75. Lies
76. Acceptance
77. Dreams
78. Friendship
79. Memories
80. My Soul
81. Pain
82. Perfect Moment
83. Hope
84. Trapped
85. Perseverance
86. Silence
86. Snow
87. The End
88. Fire
89. Uncertain
90. World
91. Wish

And I guess that's all I have to say! Catch ya later, peeps.

~ Calleigh

NaNoWriMo Rant- You have been warned.

National Novel Writing Month. Also known as: My worst enemy. I am stuck at 12,119 words, which means I am VERY behind. It sucks.

This is my second attempt at Nano. After last years experience, I don't know why I decided to try again. :P I always hate it after the first 3 days. And this year is even worse. I've had 11 hours of choir this week! Plus I have co-op two Mondays in a row, have to do my home work from that, read Macbeth, have a Shakespeare meeting on Friday, and sooo much other stuff going on it's not even funny. >.>

And now I'm done. If you read that, you deserve chocolate, go get some. :P And I feel better now, so win-win!! :D I'll probably not post again about Nano, because it will just be more of the same, and you don't really want to read all that again. :P

~ Calleigh

Happiness

Wow...long time no post. Sorry about that guys. Anyways.

All of my followers are either off oyan, or people who know that I do oyan. Well, oyan has changed my life in sooo many ways. Some amazing, some good, some not so good, some getting close to awful. Now I'm not saying that any of you amazing people are awful, some of you have just made me change in ways I never expected.

But just recently, within the past two weeks or so, God brough the Howdy 7 into my life. Anna, Eli, Reagan, Katie, Hannah, Eric, and Matt. I knew several of the group, a couple of them I knew very well, but there were also some people I'd never really had contact with before. They were kind enough to let me into their group, but I think it changed my life in a way they might not have been expecting.

A few phrases such as, "Smile!" "Happy Rules!" and, "God is good!" turn out to make such an amazing difference. If you can just remember these things...I promise you will be happy. They made me happy. Just tell yourself to smile through the pain, because there's always a something to smile about, because God is always good! Yes, the Howdy 7 made me realize that God really is good, no matter what I'm going through. Something that I knew, but had just pushed away so I could feel miserable. They were just so encouraging to me, in ways I really can't describe. For the first time, in a long while, I was really, truly happy and content.

It's amazing what being around Christian, encouraging people does to your life. So...I would like to encourage you all to find your Howdy 7. Find that group of people that you can be yourself around, who you can build up, and be built up by you in return. The people you can count on for prayer. The people who won't let you be sad and depressed, no matter how much you want to be. Find them, and never let them go.

~ Calleigh

Chapter 4

And here is Chapter 4, for anyone interested!!! :D I hope you all enjoy.

Chapter 04

“Rae. Come on, Rae, wake up!”

I blinked my eyes open and saw Rory’s worried face above me. “What happened?” I rasped, my voice almost gone. “Why can’t I talk?”

“Your memories…you were screaming the whole time.” She stroked my short hair in an effort to keep me calm. The shaking started again. I remembered.

“Stay with me, Rae,” she whispered in my ear.

“I’m trying.

“Try harder.”

An order. I obey orders, and I obeyed this one. I pulled myself together. I started to sit up, but my vision turned hazy, so I nestled my head back in Rory’s lap. “Why, Ror? Why now?”

Rory continued stroking my hair, comforting me. “I don’t know, Rae. But we’ll get through this, just like last time. I’ll still be here.”

At four years my senior, she was like an older sister more than anything else. Without Rory, I wouldn’t have survived the streets, or life after…after…him. She had been my only close friend besides Keeran. The only one that hadn’t betrayed me. I owed her everything.

I sat up again, taking it slow. This time my vision didn’t fail me. “I’m okay.”

Rory looked skeptical to say the least.

“I’ll be okay.” I amended my original statement.

“I know you will be. But it’s now that worries me.”

“I’ll survive. I did last time.”

“Barely,” she said, her voice a mere whisper.

I looked into her eyes, and for a moment I saw myself reflected in them. Not as I was now, but as I had been when I first saw her after my living hell with Sarmad. A broken, bruised, bloody little girl. There was not a single part of me untouched by some sort of torture device.

Then I blinked, and it was gone, and I saw myself as I was now. A strong, confident, though somewhat shaken young woman, who still bore the scars of her former life. Those visible and those hidden deep within. The ones that would never heal.

“I will survive,” I said, my voice firm, leaving no room for questions.

Rory kissed the top of my head, then helped me to my feet. “You always do.”

The Lady rushed in. Rory and I stood there shocked, then bowed.

“He is gone then?” Was all she said.

“He is,” said Rory, her tone holding a hint of disapproval.

“He told you.” It was not a question.

“Aye, I’m now mixed up in this plot of yours,” I said, my voice conveying more than a hint of bitterness.

“Don’t be like that, Rae…” Her face showed sadness, rather than annoyance, and the use of my nickname surprised me. We got the occasional ‘dear,’ and a few other endearments, but seldom were they personal.

“Sorry, Lady,” I mumbled.

“I am not speaking to you as your Lady, Rae, you may use my given name.”

“I don’t know it, Lady,” I said, looking down at my feet. I’d never heard anyone mention the Lady’s name. It wasn’t common knowledge, if anyone knew it at all!

She looked surprised. “Maybe I have kept myself too distant…”

I stood in the awkward silence that followed, stealing a glance at Rory, who also looked baffled at the employers behavior.

The Lady seemed to notice our self conscious attitudes, and snapped herself out of whatever thought she was in.

“My name is Seren, you may use it, but in private only.”

I nodded, a little afraid of how rapidly my life was changing.

“Rory,” the Lady said with a little dip of her head, “I’m not surprised Rael got you mixed up in all of this. You two are as thick as…well, never mind,” she said with a small grin at the pun she refused to make.

That slight lift of the corners of her mouth changed the whole Lady’s appearance. She was young, and she was beautiful. I was beginning to see a new part of the Lady I had never known existed. One that made jokes, and cared about her thieves in more than a business way. It must be lonely in such a position as the Guildmaster, everyone almost feared you. The Guildmaster had no friends. Could it be that she wanted some?

The Lady turned back to face me. “Rael, I assume you know what you are suppose to do…?”

“Not exactly, La—Seren,” I changed at the last moment when I received a glare from my employer. “I know only that I am suppose to protect this amulet from…from…” I couldn’t make myself say the name.

“I know of whom you speak,” the Lady said, her voice deliberately emotionless. I thought once more of the scars the covered her body. Did we have a similar past…?

Seren cleared her throat and continued, “You must eventually face and defeat Sarmad. You are both quite powerful, and with the amulet your victory is almost assured.”

“Almost?” I said, not sure I liked the sound of that.

“Well, we can’t guarantee. You’ve hidden your ability for so long—“

“How did you find out?” I cut in. I hadn’t performed magic since I had come to the guild.

“Well, Aro had gathered some knowledge from…a source. He told us you were very powerful.”

“It was Keeran,” I said, clenching my fists. “He’s the only one still alive that could know…other than him.”

Rory took my hand in hers, working my fingers open. She frowned at the small cuts my nails had made in my palm.

“Fix it,” a command from the Lady.

“What?” I asked, confused.

“Fix the cuts.”

“I can’t!”

“You can. You can do many things you’ve never dreamed of doing.”

“The last time I used magic, eight people died.”

“You were trying to kill them, this time is different. Focus on the cuts and making them go away. The rest will come naturally.”

“I can’t…”

“Do it.” I had obeyed every other order the Lady had given me, and I obeyed this one.

I focused on the pain in my hand, willing it to go away. It wasn’t lightning like last time, more like a slow electric shock. It didn’t hurt, but it felt like sparks were running through my veins. As I watched, the cuts in my hands closed up, leaving no hint that they’d ever been there.

“There, see! It’s not that hard,” the Lady said, smiling.

I rubbed my temples, a monster headache beginning to form.

“Ah yes, that’s one of the drawback. You’ll get used to it.”

“Easy for you to say,” I muttered.

“Actually it’s true. I have something of an ability myself, remember?” the Lady said, frowning a bit.

“I’m trying not to have a nervous breakdown, excuse me if I can’t remember every detail!” I said, rather more loud than I should have.

Seren’s face softened. “Of course. Why don’t you go back to your room and have a little rest while you think things over.”

I started to object, but Rory cut me off. “I think that’s a good idea. Come on, Rae, I’ll help you to bed.”

That’s Rory, always looking out for me.

I stumbled through the hall, dazed. I had used magic. Used it with my best friend, and the woman I most respected in the room. I had to be going insane.

Once again, a memory for my past surfaced in my mind. The biting pain as the lash fell, the fist connecting with my jaw, the punch to the stomach, knives cutting into skin. Magic had made that stop. Made it stop in a terrible way. They had deserved their fate. More than deserved it. But was it my job to carry out the judgment?

I shuddered as I remembered the blank faces staring up at me, drained of colour. Drained of life. I had taken away their existence without thought.

“Come along, Rae. You need to lay down for a bit.”

Rory’s voice intruded on my thoughts. She tugged gently on my arm, and I staggered along behind her. My brain was working over time. Too much was going on.

By now, Rory was practically dragging me through the halls. My body was separate from my brain. I couldn’t hardly control my movements. My feet never left the ground, they just shuffled along. What was wrong with me? No matter how tired I was, this had never happened before.

I heard Rory’s sigh of relief as she pushed our bedroom door open, and helped me into bed. “Sleep, Rae,” she whispered.

“Don’t leave me,” I whispered, my eyes filling with tears.

“Always there, Rae,” she said, giving my hand a gentle squeeze.

“Never alone, Ror,” I whispered. “Never alone.”

~ Calleigh

Sort of an Announcement...that fails. :P

Alright, so a few weeks back, I actually made another Shadow Spinner blog. I was really excited, and it looked pretty cool...but I didn't like how the posting worked. SO. I'm back to here again. ^_^ My random, annoying, and uneventful posts will continue. Sorry. :P

~ Calleigh

I can't think of a creative title. Deal with it. :P

So, the other day, I was with a friend and we were "fighting" over this little miniture glowstick. Seriously this thing was only a little over an inch long. 'Twas awesome. ANYWAY! I had it in my fist, and she was trying to get my fingers open. So, I've get my fist as tight as I can so she won't get the stupid little glow stick! That was my focus. Well, after we were done goofing off, I opened my hand...and there in my palm were four, nail shaped cuts. I didn't even know they were there till I actually looked.

How often does that happen in life? How often are we so focused on holding on to what we want, that we don't even realize we're hurting ourselves? How often? Do you have your fist so tight, are you too focused on what you're holding so tightly, that you don't realize that you're actually causing yourself harm? Some things to think about..

~ Calleigh